What is anxiety??

What is anxiety is really like ?

Its IMPOSSIBLE for someone to understand if they havn’t gone through it themselves.

Its a constant battle with your own mind.Its one of the hardest things to go through.But it does get easier but then again some days are alot worse and you cant even leave the bed.

I have been dealing with anxiety for a long time even though it was very slight and I thought it was just nerves until Last year it got very serious.

I couldnt leave the bed for 7 weeks straight.I couldnt leave the house everything scared the crap out of me.Until one day I realised that I couldnt live my life like this so I started a snapchat and a blog and really started focusing on my makeup to get my mind of everything.

I went to a doctor and she put me on anxiety meds.It took me A LOOOONG time to get the just about half of how I used to feel,but I knew I was getting there I had to be strong  ecause with anxiety it literally feels like someone evil is inside your head saying ” you can’t do it , your going to mess up “

I had went for a lot of head scans and medical check ups before I was actually diagnosed with anxiety and if you have ever gone for a head cat scan you will know you go into a long tube thing which is one of the most horrible experiences ever even writing this gives me the shivers about it.I lasted 3 minutes untl I had a massive panic attack and had to be taked out and since then I have gotten claustrophobia, and only recently went on a lift / elevator after about 10/11 months.

Fast forward to where I am now, Im still nowhere near where I want to be back to the girl who loved travelling , loved going out with friends , and doing random adventures but I am getting there slowly but surely. I was recently asked to do makeup up in Dublin for the World champs makeup and I havnt travelled as far as Dublin ( 3-4) hours in well over a year and I almost declined the offer but I said no if I can do this I can do anything.I am very nervous but cant wait!

So ya this is a quick little intro into my anxiety If any of you would like me to go into it in depth just let me know but until then thanks for listening and again thanks for support on this blog and all other social medias ❤

Really means the world🤗

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12 Comments Add yours

  1. Shayla Em says:

    Thank you for sharing. I’m an anxiety sufferer as well and constantly learning to cope with it. So annoying, but it’s made me stronger. Also, I’ve been claustrophobic for as long as I can remember. Ugh, the battle!!!

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  2. Love this personal post. Such a pretty page 😊


  3. Chelsea says:

    Takes a lot of courage to type up a post like this. I appreciate your honesty and bravery in doing so! I am glad to hear you are in a better place and hope you continue to do so!


  4. corinneandkirsty says:

    Thanks for sharing. I suffered from anxiety for a long time. sometime so much that i was having terrible migraines with auras so I had to learn to handle stress coz it was becoming out of control. xx Corinne


  5. rachelXblog says:

    I am also a sufferer of anxiety, learning to cope with it right now is pretty difficult! Hope your okay xxx


  6. Emma says:

    I’m so proud of you, I couldn’t Travel on my own However I’m off to America in May on my own!!
    Thanks for sharing xox


  7. Kayleigh Zara says:

    I don’t have anxiety but some of my friends do so this this has been really educational for me x


  8. Thank you for sharing this, it’s beautifully written. I’ve suffered from anxiety for several years, im always here if you need to chat 🙂
    Hels xx http://www.thehelsproject.com


  9. itsallzara says:

    I have anxiety myself and I can honestly say I know where you’re coming from. I struggle to speak up in public and get anxious just calling my doctors, it’s led to me having huge anxiety attacks especially when I panic about my college course and I’ve needed days in bed to recover. Thank you for keeping it real when lots of people romanticise issues like this xx


  10. jordyndallastaylor says:

    Thank you for sharing! Anxiety is really hard but I’ve noticed that keeping my mind occupied really helps. I started bullet journaling to and I think it’s done the most help.

    Check it out and let me know what you think 🙂 https://theobsessionbegins.wordpress.com/2017/04/27/do-you-have-a-bullet-journal-yet-2/


  11. Sophia Patel says:

    Thank you for being so open! Glad to hear you’re recovering 🙂 x


  12. Ive never experienced it myself, hope your feeling ok!


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